Today, i felt quite bored..This morning my uncle came to my house...then he saw me sleeping..the time was....er...think 10 plus in the morning...(You know why i say 'morning'? So that i will not be suanned..)
Uncle:"Wa biang...still sleeping ah! You are really pig leh.."
Me:"Ai ya...actually, i woke up earlier...but if i really wake up, then i will
need to do housework. It is either housework or sleep..."
This was followed by another round or scolding...*_*
Blame it on my lazy genes...
Ok, when i finally woke up, i didn't slack. Washed clothes, hung clothes, ironed, blabla...laundry, in a nutshell...(Why not peanut shell? How about crackpots? Squirrels? Why nutshell??? hm...)
The deer has been locked in some ulu camp...Tomorrow he has outfield...Wish him goodluck...Still sick leh him...Hope all is well by tmr...*keep fingers crossed!
Anyway, why did i say it was a funny day? (Finally, i have reached this part!!!) Today, as i was playing Maple Story, and killing killing...monsters of course!(sounds like a manic huh...but i m NOT!!! *_*)Suddenly a character stood next to me..At first, he smiled at me...Being a courteous citizen, i smiled back. Then he remarked.."I think you are very pretty"...At first i ??? (cuz i am a character in the game...of course characters are pretty..aint they???) So i remarked..."You are also handsome.." (And smiled..though at the back of my heart i was like *_*" --> To the max...) Then he asked if we could be friends...Again, being a friendly person, i said yes...As i waited for him to add me as a friend...he suddenly "ermmmmmm................"....followed by "i......."...
At this point of time, somebody (I still remember the person was called Destiny Pure..)said "the next thing is he going to tell you is that he is going to make love with you"...(And at that time i was like?!? *&$*(@&()$) Ok, not that bad, but quite bad....he said..."I think i like you..." And as many would have guessed, i was stunned, as this was the first time i heard of this kinda funny things...And being a newbbie to gaming (Only about 2 week plus...) I was sorta trying to figure out what i should do next...I stopped short of telling that siao kia i was a 35 yr old housewife who indulges in gaming and neglects the child cuz i fathom he wouldn't believe it as well. So i might as well tell him i was attached, which was the truth...
Siao Kia: "Nevermind...I'll wait for you."
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Alamak...What is that person up to man...then in the end, he followed me where ever i went...and i logged out of the game finall, all thanx to him...Goodness..indeed, you need to be in that kinda situation to be aware of the danger that lurks in the world in virtual.....It is a little wonder, some girls, innocent at heart, can get themselves into trouble uncalled for...
I related the incident to 2 people...One was Xiao Hua...and got suanned by him..."for all you know, he could be stalking you, living in the opp block and looking at you through binoculars everyday...*_*", when i told him dere was nothing to be sacred about since he wouldn't know who i am...
I also told Lavender Dreams, one of my JC friend (And a very nice talking mate) of what happened. He was more mischevious, telling me to post him the ugliest photo i could ever find of any girl and asked him if he still liked me...He assured me that i would get "positive result"...Hahahaha....liew...how could he think of such an idea?!?
Today is Cuiwen's actual Birthday...Ok. To clarify, i do know of 2 cuiwens, 1 is the NUS Cuiwen plagued with comments brimming with popularity for a moment. Another one is the innocent, adorable and pure cuiwen, my cousin aged 10 years. My cousin Cuiwen has a naughty younger brother Yaowen, so when i talk about Cuiwen and Yaowen, it can be no other people than these 2 jewels of my eye ;)
Oh ya, what i wanted to say earlier was that, i wish she had a memorable birthday dinner! :)
Time and tide waits for no man...Just when you don't realise it, time crepts past you. Silently, ticking tocking..By the time you realised, time has carried out tremendous sneaky acts of such! Unknowingly, 3 weeks has passed since the holidays started. How time flies...In another turn of an eye or 2, i will know how my second sem results are. Dreamy as i was previously, suddenly, reality strikes me as though an 100 ton elephant sank it's bottom onto me...Actually, i would prefer not to know. But hiding is avoiding. So how? See lor. There is nothing much i can do about it...*_*
I realise that when you enjoy yourself, time walks faster. When you dread it, the evil second hand of the clock takes eons of year to just move a millimetre...How evil issit?!? Wait till i become the time master! And watch how i will transform time! (Hahahahaha....*evil laugh...And i am dreaming again..*_*)
Hm...While i went to Bukit Batok Driving Centre on Friday, 27th May, i met Amos, the monkey team mate from my MNO module which i took this sem. Haha...He is still as crappy as ever...and suans me whenever he can...So fun..lol
And i realised that more activities are coming my way. I have yet to fufil my resolutions. Good or bad? Hm...i also don't know. All i know is that later i am going to celebrate Cui Wen's birthday and i want her to be very very very very happy on this day!
Nothing much about today. Went out with the deer to watch the movie 'Monster-In-Law'. Strange. Seems that we often watch light hearted movies...From Incredibles...then Meet the Fockers...Followed by The Pacifier...And lastly, today's movie. See? All funny and crappy shows...Kinda nice, cuz it brings out the laughter and forget any troubles that plaques us for the moment.
Ok. Then I realised that there are quite a few cranky movies coming out. And cartoon! Madagascar! I am waiting eagerly for it! Ai ya...Come 2 more days, and driving lessons start. No lah...not really, only basic theory. hee...But them i will try my luck. To see if there are any last minute practical cancellations at the last minute. If not have to wait till 13th June leh...:( So i am keeping my fingers crossed...heee
Hm...These few days, i realised that my mum keeps talking to me...er...sounds like the mother character in Monster In Law...oops...I didn't say anyting...heee
Realised that it has been quite sometime since i blogged...Yeah, the past few days have been quite busy...Just settled down a bit...Had been packing my house, even more like spring cleaning than Chinese New Year...(*_*) But of course it is not madness on my part. It is like this: My mum ordered 1 new cupboard and 1 new wardrobe. Normally, people would just clear the old cupboard and wardrobe to make way for the new right? Actually, this was what i thought. But i think something got into my mother, and she decided to clean the house of whichever irked her sight...(Lucky i don't annoy her...if not, she may have gotton rid of me as well...)And so, we started the ardous cleaning journey...Only to finish ny yesterday...And actually, we could finish yesterday because...er...my mum asked her colleague, a packing and throwing expert, to come and help her clean up...so paisei leh....
Hm...today, my crazy mum decided to wash a lot of clothes, so that i can exhaust both the bamboo poles and the clothe pegs...in the end, i just did that. In fact, there weren't enough pegs to go around...But don't worry! I figured out another way to secure the clothes and hang it out to dry...(i am not always blur blur sia...=p)
So here i am, updating my blog, while waiting for my character in the maple story to regain her energy...heee...*keep fingers crossed*...(hoping that the blog won't be angry with me...)
Ai ya..then suddenly, i am reminded of my sister. Who transformed into a lobster yesterday, who wore my clothes to Sentosa... (*!@()_ So evil! Helping me to enlarge my clothing! (She is bigger in size den me though she is 3 years younger than me...People even mistake her for the elder sister ok....(sob sob)
Sigh...what a sister...somebody stop her....and yes, i think i will get a chance to become a part time tutor soon enough...
Felt down for te past few days...even lower than the worst performing stock ah...Anyway, today is a ??? day. Also don't know if i am supposed to feel happy or sad. I guess the mood right now is neutral. Sigh...I didn't know getting attached brings about so many things to consider, think about. But so what if i knew? Would i still choose the path i took? I think i would really have to be in that situation to know...Hm..think i would stretch my neck a little to next week.
Anyway, i hope to start driving practicals next week(provided someone cancels at the last minute...pray hard hard...lol) Wanna keep myself occupied, so that i won't always be in thoughtful mood and eventually become a resident of the Institute of Mental Health..duh...though the creak told me that he is based there and has kindly asked the staff to reserve a premium room for me...at no extra charges...Also wanna finish learning driving asap...So that it won;t eat too much into my cirriculum time by the time school reopens...
Really really tired and relatively drained and depressed at the state of things...Really really hope that things can pick up real real fast...Hope...Keeping my fingers crossed!!!
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Napping really helps...After having taken a nap, i am feeling happier, lighter mood. At least i can smile, once again.... :) I wanna make the world a happier place to live in :)
A moody weather, a moody day.
Downcast, overcast.
Who is there to see?
Today i finally signed up for the driving lessons. Frankenstein, i m NOT colour blind...
Spent some time looking through my emails...over 100 mails unchecked. As i was busy deleting the junks in the inbox, something caught my attention. It had been sent quite sometime ago, when i was feeling especially depressed, by a much treasured friend. Thanx creakie. Really really appreicate it. Thank you for ur encouragement, ur sharing, and ur optimism. Little wonder we are twins sia...u can understand ;)
Emotions emotions.
Master or our slave?
I wonder, when it is being true to our emotions and when we are just fooled by it apparent outlook.
So what if we are true?
So what if we are over reacting?
I wonder.
Will it make any difference?
Will it? Does it?
Who cares...
Yesterday i did ironing for 12 hours...too tired to update my blog though...*yawnz...the time now is 1146, weather: rainy. Writing under a cool environment makes me cool...(Really wat...)
Ok. Why did i iron for 12 hours? Reason is that, the night before, i was challenged by my mother. She threw me a threat...'had better finish all ur ironing by wednesday, or else....'. And it was no joke. the amount of clothes, accmulated for months. Specially waiting for my school vacation to come so that i can iron them. I don't like for my integrity and character to be cast upon doubt. I can't take direct challenges to my personality. What is this?? I will prove it to u! And so, i ironed for 12 hrs...perhaps an hr break in between? just to prove a point: That i am no pushover. I don't know why, even when asked to stop, i didn't. Cuz to me, a promise is a promise. I won't break it.
Perhaps to many, they would think that this is stupidity and the stubborn and pride genes at play. Actually, i am not too sure why i reacted so as well. (I mean i have the reasons...but is it worth for me to react so?) Perhaps...this is the 'supressed' me? I used to think that the good life would come after my exams...(at least before reults day =p) But then, till now, i must say, i have not really taken a good break....How huh? Someone sponsor me for spa sessions leh! I want massage also! I want to go out!!! Duh...feel like a locked tweety...(*_*)
I have decided to come up with another post, which really describes how i feel today. Think it is like a kinda heavy feeling...
One week after exams. And i am still having weird dreams. Tension? Where does that come from? Not too sure. But may roughly guess it. Had such a scary dream this morning! In the dream i kept crying, crying and crying. Even as i think about it now, my eyes turn moist. Apparently when i woke up at that junction (i had fragmented sleep) my eyes were swollen. Just a bit of sadnees and i could already feel tears. Can you feel the extent of helplessness and sorrows that haunted me pervasively in my dreams? I don't know. I wonder why.
To each family his own problems. 2 sets of strong perceptions by 2 opinionated groups of people who refuse to hear each other out can really turn things sour. The children get into a fix. Can they stop it? Irritating. And some mingling by ignornant person adds to the tension of the children. Sometimes i just wonder, if it was good for people to be such complex and emotional creature? Perhaps it should be a gift, for those who know how to make good use of it. Perhaps, it could be given, and withdrawn gradually each time a person acts in his wilful way and persistence. Will that teach them? Learning by the hard way? Perhaps...But if perhaps really took place, the world would be a much better place...
I had in my mind to continue from where i left for the last entry. But due to the change of moods, i had decided to put aside that for today...
Yesterday was work out day. Went for morning jog with aunt after 2.5 hours of sleep. Caught up with some sleep after that and went out for car show rooms and cycling at East Coast Park...(ECP for short)
The cars we saw (we = me + deer. Just that his car is quite old, and his dad is getting a new one. Nothing else *_*) are...wah...haha...next time i am gonna drive a MPV (multi purpose vehicle..or family car, as some people call it..) Stumbled upon the release of Jackie Chan's endorsed car press conference, which was a private function. Too bad, didn't manage to catch a glimpse of him...ai wanna...i juz wanna see if his nose is really big...=p
Anyway, deer's dad finally settled on a Toyota Vios. (and manual gear...) Okay. That is what i got to know of today.
Anyway, after that we met up with his secondary school class at ECP. Got teased cuz we went to car showrooms. "wah...so fast buy car. When are u getting a house???" (*_*) Alamak...What are these people thinking of???
Went for cycling on a twin bike, cuz i wasn't a steady cyclist. Dun wanna send people to haven or Singapore General Hospital on such a peaceful happy saturday. So fun! And i salute the deer's cycling skills. So calm, so cool! (Er...but he cycles in a zig zag manner....add spice ah? Dunno lah, but still v gd!!!) Some frisbee playing. Fun.
Dinner at Parkway Parade, at Ajisan. And got made fun by them again! They asked me to recall all the names of the people. Got 10 of them ok...Managed to remember all but one. That person i said 'er...her name is xiao something...' Then they had to tell her i call her 'Siao cha bo..." (*&^&^*&@^)
Home after that. Had fun with Cuiwen and Yaowen, my dear cousins! Yaowen took a lot of liking towards eating as usual, think that is his hobby liao...and cuiwen is becoming more and more of msn addict...haha...at this point i must say 'to each his own' =p The deer got stuffed with food from my mother...hahahahahaha....he come a few more days, he can become fat pig already. Eeeeeeee...Then he would e full of fats...(green face = sick :S)
The first thought when i looked at my title...is the political sphere of Singapore...but too bad, i am not talking about that....
Frankly, this blog entry is inspired by some creak's entry...To question the age old notion: That opposites attract...In the first place, i wonder where they get the idea from...could it be through nature? Laws of magnets? That unlike poles attract and like poles repel? Hee...to add on to that observation, in fact, i always hear people say...Handsome boyfriend always have unflattering girlfriend, and pretty girls are often attached to not so handsome boyfriends...haha..
Some friend of mine...(frankenstein) once told me about his ten point rule...that in courtship, each person will contribute his or her share of points..(should be character attributes?)..U need 10 points to make a relationship work...hm..me wonders, if that points to contributing differences...
As for me, i think that it depends on the kinds of comparisons we are looking at. I suppose people don't really mean extreme opposites right...Like hm...you like to be totally clothed from hair to toenails and your other half likes to walk around naked...or u are compassionate while the other person kills ruthlessly...(er....???)
I came across some interesting article...Which divided differences into 2 domains...(basically just means 2 groups la...), which are: Personality related attributes and Attitude related...
"What is most intriguing is that when the researchers assessed marital quality and happiness, they found that personality similarity was related to marital satisfaction, but attitude similarity was not." And that set me to think..what exactly is personality similarity? What about atttitudes? Having the same interests...where does that fall into? How about never say die mentality? Or perhaps, it would be good for us to look at the extent of similarity or differences...
And i realised that up to this point, i am really finding it hard to continue...THE BATTLE BETWEEN THE BRAINS AND BRAWNS...Brawns beat brains...1 to nil...for the moment! I SAID 'FOR THE MOMENT'..and dun the craznies out there suan me based on this!
Today, i woke up with the enthusiatic feeling of thinking that probably my aunt can call off the morning jog..i imagined her saying 'eh..i am very tired today...let's sleep, and forget about jogging..' hahaha..But then, just as i was about to change into my smart jogging outfit...I realised, it was raining! Yeah! Dun need to jog liao! Ha..haha....hahahaha...(Ain't i lazy....=p)
In the afternoon, the deer came to my house...so in the end actually not much of an outing...Anyway, i finally got to watch the Matrix! Wah...so exciting...the stunts...is really...wah...hahahaha...amazing! Neo looks so..so...dashing! so does Trinity...astonishing! haha...(And i m hm...5 years behind time!!!)
Later, we went to Fairprice to shop for some groceries...Met my gong gong along the way...Well i should say my ah gong is really a little blur blur...(gong gong...=p)Cuz he looked a bit blur..like dunno wat is happening like dat...haha
Then later...headed back to my own house lor...Actually stay at home better...dun need to waste energy walking around...I realise i dun really enjoy shopping sia....(like wat i told xiao hua: Waste time and energy...=p) Cooking is much more fun...and if i dun iron clothes, i get scolded! It is a good deal right? hahaha.....
Oh ya, tomorrow is my second uncle's birthday! I wish him happy birthday in advance!
Apparently, i wanted to write something yesterday...But i forgot again...how come i didn't write in the end...huh??? How come huh???
Anyway, lately, i have been suanned by frankenstein...ai ya...There can only be one reason...and that is...I am too nice...so people suan me...(And facts cannot be disputed...)
Anyway, yesterday was ah sim's birthday...(hm..ah sim is actually the deer =p)
So spent some time with him....Well, what did we do huh? Let me try to recall...*thinking....thinking....
Oh! yesterday, we went to Kallang ave 25...to buy a digital camera with a voucher from red rewards...so in the end it costed him 129...Not too bad for a low end camera...
Later, we went to suntec...And bought some sushi...(but dun haf salmon handroll....so sad :( ai ya...should have gone to the Carrefour at plaza Singapura...*_*)
Sat at a corner near the Water Foundation...and ate sushi...So nice the experience! Haha...Later went to eat at Swensen's...Had a Sirloin Steak, he had seafood pasta...and we had EARTHQUAKE !!! So nice!!! So cold, till i was shivering....Wa...really jing tian dong di! )
Anyway, later, we went hm....home! haha...and i bought him a jacket for his birthday...And this is his first jacket...I can't imagine someone without a jacket at home lor...just like a person dun haf clothes...how can???
And today...is quite boring...i slept for half a day...ermz...er....sleeping...and later...i realised, i have yet ironed any clothes! So off i was...pressing clothes!!! Wa...stood for 3 hrs...and still one basket load of clothes left to iron...sigh...no life leh....
Haha...anyway, for tomorrow, i will be going out again! And tomorrow is Cui Wen's last day of exams... Yeah! Then after that she will call me and talk to me! Waiting for that! Hahahah...Cui wen...my dear cousin...my dear Cuiwen...lalala....How nice is it!
Hm...when liberty becomes too much, what do you do?
Lately, i don't really have much to write about on the blog leh...How come neh? Haha..not much to complain...But had a 'fabulous' journey today...which is yet again, an affirmation of my blurness....Getting lost in Tampines...*_*...Century square shopping centre...I good hor, somemore used to work there lor...sigh...And then hor..the shopping centre very consumer unfreiendly wan leh...No map to guide me lor...make me walk round and round...like the merry go round...*_*
When i finally remembered that i can and should actually ask for help, help was given...Yeah!!! But it was given in the wrong direction...helping me earn weird looks from ppe, who must have thought: 'eh..i thought this gal has been walking around here for the past 2 hours...???'... On second...nono, i should say third thoughts..it is a good form of exercise mah...prepare me for my jog tomorrow...(haha- i know it is not funny *_*)
Oh yeah! And i finally got the 'help' i needed...i realised, that to my HORROR, the place i had been looking for, i actually walked right past it not once, not twice, but THREE times! (Ah...boo hoo....Wat the?!?)
Sigh...i think ah...i m the blurest person i have come across so far lor..sigh...can somebody help me?!?
Life is so beautiful...^^
Ok, shall i just say that i am over the moon after the exams have officically ended...Oh yeah! Lalalalala (Dance around like a happy turtle...heeheee) Why? Cuz more time on my hand....My time with the deer, more time to do what i like and what i want...(Hm...apparently, i have forgotten what i wanted to do liao..oops..paisei paisei...)
But then, my friends decided to fly overseas, leaving the POOR me to FACE THE WALL AT HOME....(hahaha...i m lying... =p) So..YIWEI, XIAOLI!!! You both had better reflect upon it ok! Write me a 10'000 word essay on why you didn't take me with you overseas...
I miss my cuiwen and yaowen (both my cousins)..Haha...But come my break, her exams starts..her school hor...really (*&!*(#&*@^# leh..(Never heard of the name Ng Zi Jia the genie meh? Dun grant them wishes then they know ah...)nvm nvm...only 1 week, and i can see them!
Yeah!!!
Anyway, let me write about some of my holiday ambitions...
1) To 'renovate' my blog (Time to completion : infinity)
1) To experiment with cooking..(Need to start looking for a new home....just in case =p)
1) To learn driving (first, i must overcome my laziness...)
1) To do some other things which i have not thought of at the moment...and which is more important than the last event!!! =p =p =p
10) To do some housework (Bo pian, under the orders from mama...*_*)
Ok, that's about it....Cya again next time! ;)
5 out of 6 papers completed...But somehow, i don't feel placated...Instead, i feel more unsettled than relived. Why is that so? I wonder...Yesterday, after my paper, i had a sinister feeling. I was afraid that history would repeat itself, that it would be like my chem paper that i took last sem. I had not managed to complete 1 question for my paper yesterday. And i discovered that i had made a mistake for my first question. Plus, i didn't really work out my last question properly.
Halfway through the paper, i had a headache. My head felt heavy that i couldn't concentrate. Goodness! I thought to myself. I had better not 'ta bao' (means take away...means fail module and retake this next sem) this module! Much as i tried, after i completed my paper, i simply could not make myself focus on the first 2 questions which i had not manage to do. I tried, but couldn't...I tried not to discuss, but overheard others discussing, which was how i found out that i was 1 down. 3 down now. There are only 7 questions in the paper. I suspect my third question is also badly done. I feel petrified at the thought of doing badly. Perhaps it is this that makes me feel unsettled...perhaps...i wonder.
For all the papers i have done so far, none i can say i am truly satisfied with. I dare not think of the prospects of getting back my results, and I know that this thought will haunt me for as long as it takes to the results day after i end my exams. I can't wait for that NOT to happen.
Feeling pissed now...Wanna find but can't find the ten year series! Seems like when thing are going wrong, they might as well go crooked all the way...Wanna study oso cannot! Wat on earth man! Angry angry angry angry...even telling me to count from 1 to 10 will not soothe my temper
! Not even counting to a billion! Darn! Suay day! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Ok, today was a funny day...and fun as well...Had a 'good' time looking after my baby cousin..maybe i shouldn't call him baby..Ok, naughty cousin Yao wen...(Going three this year...any takers? haha...dun tell anyone...lest i become a steak =p) Oh, good time feeding him, coaxing him to sleep, getting scratched by him, and playing...whilst studying...(really wondering how much went into my head...)
Has been some time i last watched tv...today, watched some japanese legend...2 weeks ago it showed something like a fable...to inculcate filial piety into people...well, have always liked jap shows, cuz whenever i watch them, i get inspired, either they teach me values, or they motivate me...(i kinda like the jap culture, yes, jap culture, like greeting etc etc...Of course must be something i don't have...if not, admire for what?!?)
Then later fairy godbrother showed me a fun webbie..have inserted it somewhere along the left panel, after my profiles...can go try, quite fun....actually 'fishy zi jia' gives the funniest, or according to the godbrother, the 'nicest' combination...(*_*)..But who would in the right mind call themself a fish? ((*&#(@)
Ok, that's about all...After the slacking, i need to get back to work liao...Even though i miss the deer and he misses me as well...to bad...ALL THANKS TO EXAMS!!!(&$(*@$&@(A$@
What hurts? Why does it hurt? It hurts to be maligned by ur loved ones...esp...when u feel that the trust is no longer there...In order to prepare for the unrelenting syllabus set by the merciless planner of the modules, I go to the Community Centre everyday...Sometimes from 12 till 10, sometimes from 1 to 10. Today, my mum fetched my from the Community Centre (late mah)...Den along the way, as we were walking, she suddenly told me "ur heart is no longer in..(ur studies)"...
I dunno..maybe as other people look at it, there is nothing to kick up a fuss about. But as far as i was concerned, i felt shattered. The person whom i so much respect, whom i thought was so understanding...had to say that to me...cuz i was already attached...why? but why? U know, the feeling hurts...It hurts juz like the words were some powerful sword that pierces through the heart...leaving you to bleed there in agony...I didn't know what to say...but i felt very very sad...What appeared to me was that 'So, in ur opinion, i haf just been fooling around..Is that right?'; 'i tot u would understand, but even u don't...i had always thought that you were someone so close and so understanding....' I don't know how to put it...Seems like one sentence of hers, is enough to wash away all the efforts i have put in..All that i have done, is, in her eyes, nothing but gone in the winds as the ash...it has all come to nought...That is how i feel...
Now that i have written it down, and complained about it, it feels better. Put it down and go on...Don't worry...will bury it in the ground lest someone kicks and trips over it..(no $$ to pay for hospitalisation fees...)
