Many a times, i have heard people say you dream of what you think...subconsciuosly...Which makes me wonder, what exactly takes over when you are asleep...Are dreams set upon by the many active brain neurons contributed by the "awake" part of my brain? Or simply some general brain cells which happened to be active.
Whatever the reason is, the time now is 4.09 p.m.. I have slept for a good hour and a half at least...Had a phone call not have jolted my out of my sleep, who knows how much longer this struggle is going to last...It does spooks me, when i think about it once again...It is like this, my exams are just round the corner, like in 2 weeks' time...I was doing my tutorial, when i decided to take a little nap...well, in order that i wouldn't get too comfortable on my bed, i lied down on my sofa instead. The first time i slept, it seemed as long i have been trapped in a pit, finding it hard to get myself out of it...I jolly well know that i can't sleep for long, yet, the stimulus that expresses this feeling was through my dreams...I dreamt that i wanted to get up, i just couldn't get up...Then it as though i suddenly gain some strength to push me out of my disturbing dream after half an hour...But somehow, i was still very tired...So this time, i decided to sleep 15 more mins...this time i set my alarm to 3.00pm. (Wrong!!! My clock system is 24 hrs! So it should have been 1500...no wonder, i did not hear any alarming sounds!!!)
Goodness was to know that i would be heading for more trouble...this time, i got sucked into a black hole...Sleeping or half sleeping i wondered...I recall myself being semi asleep to listen when i am supposed to wake up...but ever since when i forgot, i plunged myself into a series of looping dreams...Each time, i would dream of myself sleeping on a sofa, desperately trying to get up, but my muscles refused to cooperate. My physical self was still a lifeless form, deep into sleep, whereas my mental self would be trying to move my hands to call for help...help to wake 'me' up...I vividly remembering myself having successfully kicked my table a little, pushing down the magazines and using my voice a little to call out "mama, help..." for a few times, then my mum would come and lift me into a sitting position to ask me what was wrong...After i had awaken, i still felt very tired...and i would go back into my sleep...once again, this scenario would take place...I remember this feeling as something that is very scary...it seems like a you want, yet you can't kind of a hopeless situation...This dream kept continuing, and repeating itself, till my mum told me "i think you had better sleep instead.." No!!! I still fought hard against myself to wake up...but all efforts were in vain...The turmoil continued for 1 hr, till i was jolted out by a phone call from my mum, who was actually out with her friends...
I finally woke up...It really made me wonder, who controlled my sleep? My dreams?? My subconscious mind? Did it want me to wake up or sleep? If it was my consicous self which stopped myself from waking up, surely the conscious side of me would know that i cant sleep my day away?
Having said that, i recall myself having close brushes with death during my sleep...I had buried my face under the pillow when i slept...and halfway through, i felt as though i was suffocating...this time, my consious mental mind tried to take over my body, by telling my hands to move the pillow away...But my body refused to comply...Asking for help through shouting was no use, as i couldn't activate my voice either...As though miracle happens, at the nick of time, i would always be able to suddenly have enough strength to move my hands to save myself from dying...But as i would remember, it is all the same, as what i felt today, a painful process...
WheE! On my way to recovery le...yeah! What's this hooha about? 2 days ago, i felt unwell, then my sore throat developed into cough, cold (i used up 3 packets of tissue in sch yest...nose was having a chraitable run =.=) and as a result, i did no work, no maple story...(Okok la, a bit...fine....some maple story...but yesterday i really did not play any ok...) and sleep, something which i had to coerce my brain into...by yesterday night, i was almost as good as a walking log, lifeless, aching, coughing like an old grandmother, and catching up with my running nose...Duh...In the end, the stubborn me decided to take some form of medication...lucky me, my funny sis kept all sorts of doctor's medicine (with description of its uses of course) from my mum's recent visits to the doctor this year...(normally medicine can last for at least a year...but i told her to discard those with no expiry...i smart hor...=p) So in the end, i took a clarinase, and a panadol for fever (impish me felt a bit feverish....)
Hm...yesterday slept quite early....nevertheless, i still managed to receive 2 songs that are pleasing to my ears...^^
And, yesterday night, i had a funny dream...I dreamt, i was taking my physical fitness test, which had its events changed...One of the station which impressed upon me the most was a station that required me to throw styroform balls at dark stone gollems' head [DSG] (some very strong monsters from maple story *_*) which were stationed at a squash ball court...while i was at the top, in a room that resembled a control room...then the officer was my ex-collegue back at CPF...(?!?!) when she realised that i couldn't throw...(really what...the styroform balls so light...how to throw at the DSG?) She decided to help me out...then the DSG followed her to the control room?!?! SHe managed to chase it out...and i had to start again...in the end, i was taken out of the station cuz i took too long...> 10 mins...I though i would fail, but i got 14 pts, and got myself e erm...Innocent clay award...(What's that????) (Actually, they rounded it down fr 17 i think, some intructor had wanted to give me 18, 1 extra pt so that i could qualify for a higher level clay award....erm???)
Then, i dreamt about jurong island, how they had sucked out the water from the land ??? and the land level was even higher than SInagpore...( i thought Jurong Island was reclaimed?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!) And you know who did the narration? A Coelacanth...(a FISH which was thought to have gone extinct long ago....till recently...) Grrr...and to think i was listening and nodding my head in agreement in the dream....
Then i dreamt that Rear admiral Teo Chee Hean was going to visit Chinatown ( i think i was there ba...) I happened to be at the KFC....And...Well, he was going to that place as well, so after they gave me my take away, i had to stay there to pretend to eat cuz by that time, he was coming in le...Erm...the horizontal dimensions did not match him in my dreams...But, he did look like real life when he was going back from the visit to KFC...hm....Funny dream leh...i woke up feeling not tired...I am soooooooo happy...so i decided to blog.... =)
I am being pulled sideways, digonally, in all sorts of direction...What do you call that? Strain...*_*...Hmm...anyway, I have said this over a billion times but i must still say it...I have not being doing any work for the past few days! How ah? My results going on a roller coaster ride alr wor...Juz dat the downward thrill is much more intense than the upward thrill...eh...plus, i have been sleeping...just like a pig, as though any amount of sleep is not enough...How come i don't feel tired when i play maple story huh? &)(@**$)@(*)@$( alamak!
Suddenly, i am feeling very very worried for my sister...Her O levels this year...But her prelim results are not spectular at all...Coupled with snides from an inconsiderate neighbour, i really really hope that she can cross this hurdle...
Hm...as what my friends have told me...People get more easily irritated nowadays...Ain't it true? Alright then, here's a little something to help spice up the day...Comics! A little sparstic...credits, http://www.happyniuniu.com
How to flatter ur teacher...
yet another one...
another one
Haha...i think it will be an unanimous YES from my friends...But i still wanna noe: Am i really naughty? How does my heart look like? How does my brain function? What goes through my mind?
To the recent outburst of articles pertaining to certain preaching practice by some educators who advocate certain religion...this is what i have to say:
The golden rule
"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you"
- Preach and expect to be preached...
and finally,
Be respectful if you want to be respected.
Disclaimer: This response does not refer to any religion in particular or any person...
P.S.: The current surge of interest taken up by many on preaching was an event that was expected to throw up lots of public opinions sooner or later...I believe that it will remain, now and in future, an open ended question.
Recently, after some house cleaning, my grandma discovered some treasures - Her stitch work!!! Rather well done i should say...the stitch squares are small, the patterns are complicated...i shall share her pieces online =)
Ok...let's take a close up on 2 of the wayangs (i call em dat la...)
Her Favourite!! Opera singers!! One of her most enjoyable moments...is to watch em perform...
This is her proudest piece of work...her erm..i think lions? Actually not very sure...she had a hard time stitching this...
Graceful phoenix encircling a rose...
her phoenix
What do you do? When doing is not going to help?
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That was me yesterday, depressed...subsequently, i went for driving lesson, this one i wanted to cancel it, but nobody wanted the lesson...so...in the end...bo pian lor...go for it...hm..well, it did help me to take my mind off the burdensome studies...my skills were a bit rusty though, braking harder than the past...haha...but the instructor still managed to fall asleep...Not scared of his chauffeur ah? wahahaha So anyway, i feel less dead now...technically speaking, i should be better able to concentrate, but biologically speaking, i may not...sounds confusing? Nevermind =p
Anyway, today need to work on quite a tad of things...spent bulk of my time playing online game yesterday, to reward myself for going for the dreaded driving lesson, which turned out not to be so dreadful afterall...and as a reward for...doing minimal work! lol...
Me Me!!
Me!
My rebonded look! Hm...had a good mind to post this up yesterday, so that i can show all my updated hairstyle...rebonded hair! (yet again *_*) As i had a fetish for my new looks (which i thought was not too bad) I started taking a lot of pictures of myself and then i posted it on my MSN. As if that was not enough, i am going to post somemore to satisify myself!
Sigh...the worst period ever spent...What was the latest mess i got myself into? I remember uploading my bio-chem assignment (which was due yesterday) and seeing the message that file was successfully uploaded. Yet, when i next look at my IVLE (something like my modules organizer), i saw the window telling me to upload my file!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shock, anxiety grappled my mind. The deadline was over, and that assignment would account for 15% of my total grade...What am i supposed to do? As a result, the deer stayed up wif me and tried to console me...and i wrote an email to my lecturer, 2 in fact, to tell him of this ridiculous turn of event...How can this happen? I can't believe my eyes...What went wrong? I don't believe it...What is going on? Even the simplest of all things can suddenly turn up in a twist and land me into a bottomless pit...Is this yet another indication that there will be worse things to come?
This month has been packed full of incidents, accidents, for me, and for the deer...I can't, or i refuse to believe that i have been plagued by bad luck...but reality seems to be proving otherwise...Time and time again, i have gotten into trouble...the more it seems, i try to pay attention to my academic work, the worse it turns out to be...I am being made a fool over and over again...When will this ever end?
I am trying very very hard to think positive...but i end up writing more emotionally draining blogs that puts even myself off instead...When will the last straw come? How long am i supposed to endure all the nonsense i am going through? I am very tired le...Just feel like giving in to fate, and let it does what it deems fit to me...
